THIS IS HOW YOU ARE REBORN.

My love, hello.

Since returning home from Austin I've been in a void.

At first I thought it was just rest and integration from the Solar Eclipse – the energy, the festival, the ceremony, the travel – which I accepted and surrendered to. But…

IT. KEPT. GOING.

And I began to feel my resistance to it…

"I don't have time to slow down now" I argued (with God, the universe).

Or better yet, I don't have the privilege to slow down now. I need to go, move, take action, create, serve, sell, connect, expand, build, teach, grow! There's just so much to DO.

God said no.

I want you to BE.

I want you to EMPTY.

And I didn't like it. So I kept trying to fill the void…

With ALL the numbing distractions.

Come be a fly on my wall, I have nothing to hide. I am human, like you all:

I scrolled endlessly.

I binged Friend's bloopers.

I watched hilarious memes/reels.

I ate too many sweets, unconsciously.

I stuffed myself full of anything but feeling.

I avoided my most potent practices and rituals.

EXACTLY the opposite of the way I typically walk through life.

And I knew exactly what I was doing… what I was choosing (because anything that you are consciously aware of becomes a choice)…

God waited patiently for me to get my little avoidant tantrum out of my system, holding firm in what was being asked – slow down, be still, be emptied.

Ok. I hear you. I'm listening…

I TRUST.

It's all provision… this too.

I'm in the shift.

I'm in the uncomfortable middle space…

I'm in between the frequency of an old life and a new one.

I'm in the void… a place I know so well…

AND I LOVE THE VOID.

The void is the fertile space of creation.

It's dark yes… but so is the womb.

Do not be afraid of the dark.

Do not be afraid of being emptied.

Do not be afraid of mystery + unknown.

Do not be afraid to slowing all the way down.

THIS IS WHERE YOU ARE REBORN.

And the more you resist the void, the longer you will stay there.

The void has work to do on you, let it.

Let your desire + faith be bigger than your fear.

Trust that it's all provision – happening FOR you.

And surrender fully to the void.

To the feeling of EMPTY.

Without story. Just the pure sensation of feeling.

Feel it all the way to the bottom.

Let your stories go.

I cannot stress this part enough.

Empty yourself of mind drama and stories.

Just

Be

Empty

That is how you give God the space to fill you.

Every time you get impatient and step in to fill the space, you push away the work God is trying to do on you and in your life. You make it take longer.

Let yourself be in longing.

In the juicy, luscious feeling of pure desire.

Allow the ache, with the knowing that it's already done.

Not longing from a place of lack and scarcity…

But longing from a place that turns you the fuck ON.

Empty, and let God fill the void.